Once upon a time, I remember dreaming that I’d like to have the career, the husband, the kids, and everything else that goes along with that. And while I still have those dreams, I have…re-imagined them, if you will. The more I thought about it, the more I realized, having it all is going to take a lot of work! Now, I’m not saying I’m a lazy bum, but as I get older, I realize how precious time is to me. I don’t know if I want to spend my days trying to pull off having it all. In fact, I know now that only a few things matter to me.
One is the career situation. I had all these career plans that have not gone as planned by any means. But, that’s ok! I’m moving on and learning that everything truly happens for a reason. And, sometimes, you can plan all you want, but the only real plan is God’s. Sometimes, you have to step aside and let God do the work. I finally figured out that I don’t really want a career, in the traditional sense of the word.
What I want to do is something that makes me and others happy, while also helping others in some kind of way. I’ve realized that I’ve been following (consciously and subconsciously) what everyone (friends, family, society) says you should do. You go to school, you get a degree(s) and then you start a career. Obviously, it’s not that simple, or even in that order sometimes, but that’s essentially what society dictates. With all of the trouble I’ve been having with what I thought should be my career, I’ve had to step back and take another look at what I really want out of life. While I’ve loved advising students, I’ve always known that I didn’t want to do it for the rest of my life. I’ve always wanted to be a writer. It’s something that’s been in my heart for a very, very long time. So, during this current unemployment, it hit me. I should start writing! And do it for real this time!
Another goal (it’s weird to call it a goal), is to have a family. While I feel a bit stressed (tick, tick, tick), I’m learning to just be patient. If it happens, it happens. We’ll be ready. But it’s still stressful to think about, given our current living situation and my lack of a job. However, as I said, everything happens for a reason. I have to remember that just because *I* don’t see a way, doesn’t mean that God doesn’t see a way. In fact, when I really started thinking about it, it would be perfect for us to have a family now. Yes, financially it doesn’t seem wise, but since I’m not working, I’m automatically able to be home with a child. I wouldn’t have to worry about taking off work for an extensive time. And I don’t have to worry about daycare costs. Hmm, sounds like a win-win to me!
Let me wrap by saying, maybe having it all is your goal, but you feel like you’ll never get there. Don’t fret. Maybe you have to do what I did and think about it differently.
Keep the faith, folks!